Kanye West: 'I've thought about killing myself all the time'

CNN/Stylemagazine.com Newswire | 6/26/2018, 10:29 a.m.
Kanye West wants you to know he didn't say what you think he said. In an interview with The New ...
Kanye West

By Lisa Respers France, CNN

(CNN) -- Kanye West wants you to know he didn't say what you think he said.

In an interview with The New York Times published Monday, West said people didn't understand what he actually meant by his now-famous comment about slavery.

"I said the idea of sitting in something for 400 years sounds -- sounds -- like a choice to me, I never said it's a choice," West told the publication. "I never said slavery itself -- like being shackled in chains -- was a choice."

West spoke with The Times over three days earlier this month while in Wyoming, a state he's visited frequently since last year and where he both worked on and debuted his new album "Ye."

Here's more of what West shared in the interview:

West has considered suicide

The album opens with the single, "I Thought About Killing You."

Some fans have wondered whether West meant he wanted to off his public persona, which also appears to be his personal one.

He said he's considered it.

"Oh yeah, I've thought about killing myself all the time. It's always a option and [expletive]," West said. "Like Louis C.K. said: I flip through the manual. I weigh all the options."

West appears to be in a better place now, saying later in the interview, "I'm just having this epiphany now, 'cause I didn't do it, but I did think it all the way through. But if I didn't think it all the way through, then it's actually maybe more of a chance of it happening."

His wife summoned Tony Robbins to help

West said his wife, Kim Kardashian West, engaged life coach Tony Robbins to talk to him after all the upheaval, which included the musician's erratic behavior and a hospitalization.

"He could look at me and you know, I don't know why he mentioned suicide, but he could tell that I was very low," West said. "Really medicated, shoulders slumped down, and my confidence was gone, which is a lot of the root of my superpower, because if you truly have self-confidence, no one can say anything to you."

Robbins instructed West to go into a warrior pose and scream.

"I was so self-conscious about the nanny and the housekeeper that I didn't want them to hear me screaming in the living room," West said. "I think that that's such a metaphor of something for the existence of so-called well-off people that they're not really well-off -- they won't even scream in their own house."

But he did scream and it helped, according to West.

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